Hectic times

I sometimes feel that I am floating through my life, because there is many things to do and yet I have so little time to do them. Or… Not so much to do them, but to have some breathing and digesting room in between. It sometimes feels that for certain issues I do not have the time to think everything through. Also, I have no time to do long term things and have no time to follow through certain promises, etc.

It is an interesting feeling, I do get energy from doing things and I am quite good at multitasking and getting into things quickly, but somehow I feel that by doing that I am not doing everything as well as I could. This is unfortunate, but I guess life is a balancing act between doing things well enough and doing many things. I am a perfectionist so it can be difficult sometimes or I can feel bad about some things I could not devote my full resources to, but on the other hand, there are other things that I can later say with pride I did the best I could.

Anyway, I did not mean to ramble, but I have been thinking a lot lately regarding time and scheduling and does not having enough time somehow dehumanises me. I think it does not, yet. But there is a threat there.

There is also stress, which I am capable of tolerating quite well, but at some point I start to act as a different person, insulting people, when there is no need, talking to the wrong people about the wrong things, etc.

P.S. I have grown to hate people who say they do not have enough time. It is not true: for the right things there is all the time in the world, it is those things you do not really want to do that you have no time for. It is a question of priorities. I think I have my priorities quite well in order.