Thoughts on Eesti 90

Today is the first day of the 90th anniversary of the Republic of Estonia. My personal relationship with my country is a little complicated: I like to think about myself as a citizen of the world or Europe, Estonia seems way too small for me. Even more important than that is my dislike of authority, especially state authority. I dislike nationalists and people who say that they are ready to die for their country. I cannot sincerely argue that Estonia is in some way much better than some other country is because I believe it is sheer coincidence that I was born here and at this time. If I was born in Latvia, I would be expected to be a proud Latvian, etc. This is my reasoning for being a pacifict as well, war is an enormous waste of resources, money and people, as it is silly to fight over a piece of land or other nationalist notions (the same applies for religion, my other big “enemy”).

That being said, I love Estonia. It is irrational kind of love, but it is the environment where I have lived most of my life, it is where I have experienced so much, it is a part of me. While in Estonia, it is easy to crumble and complain, but in truth whenever I go abroad I do start missing the things that were good here. I cannot define them, but Estonia is Home. The beautiful nature, the people, the way things are handled: it makes me really happy to live here. It is a great country to live in and it will become even better.

P.S. The “Eesti 90″ logo is beautiful and cool. The freedom cross monument is not. The logo symbolises what I feel for Estonia, whereas the freedom cross does not.