Relationships

Christmas is an emotionally difficult time for me every year as it is a time one should share with loved ones. I do share it with my family, whom I love, but it I also feel sad that I do not have that special someone, a person I could share this and other events in my life. I did not have this need before or it was not so urgent then, but now I do feel sometimes unhappy not to have a committed relationship with someone. Actually, the road I must travel before getting there is a long one, but it has to start some day and with someone.

I have issues with self-esteem and self-image, which means I find it very difficult to make first contact even with someone whom I really like. The saying that the sleeping cat catches no mouse rings true to me, especially when a distant relative of mine told this to me at a party I was some time ago. He had found his love, but he also spent a long time before entering into a committed relationship. I am prepared to live alone, but I am afraid of the person I might turn into without getting the love I need. I also think that loving someone will make me a better person.

In any case, Christmas-time is a great time, but it is not so great as it could be for many people who are alone.